What if you were right?
What if all the talk was just, talk?
What if what you said that day was what you think deeply
And those things were true?
I can't stop thinking.
I tried to leave.
Honestly, I did.
It didn't work.
I thought I have escaped,
Then your shadow came again.
They were haunting me in my dreams,
You came back.
The things that I wrote,
In my letters that were supposed to be for you,
They were real.
I didn't know what I meant to you.
I didn't know what your real and sincere feelings are.
But what I do know is,
It seemed better for me to forget everything
And act like there was nothing.
But at least I won't get my hopes high.
I wasn't leaving because of you.
I was leaving because I think you deserve better than what I am now.
I am trying to kill these butterflies inside me
The butterflies that flutter when I see you
So that I wouldn't feel bad leaving you.
Because there was no reason to be special anymore
When all I give you was misery and pain.
"I dah tak rasa u special mcm dulu"
It hurts. It stayed in my heart until now.
But that's okay.
It didn't stop me from leaving, at least.
p/s : Be happy. And take care, always.