Sunday, February 11, 2018

Everything as it is.

Mock me if you want to.
Call me whatever you want to.
You know it won't break me.
It doesn't really bother me.
Bullshit? You're the pathetic one.

Nothing changed too much.
Me, still being depressed as always.
Still hating everything and everyone.
Still having these suicidal feelings.
Thinking how relieving it will be if I die.
How I can leave people around me feeling guilty,
Thinking of how my death could effect their lives,

I just leave everything be.
Go with the flow, they said.
Believe in His plans.
Don't think too much, they said.
If you were ever called a bitch and getting accused of being a flirt,
Also accused of not helping in building for the future,
Tell me how can you still be positive in your life?

Now that's true bullshit right there.
Not me tweeting about my thoughts and calling it bullshit.
Loser. Go fuck yourself.

I'm not even surprised at myself for crying to sleep and feeling normal afterwards.
It's part of my routine now.
Guess which motherfucker is responsible for it?
Everything is problematic.
Everything is suffocating.

p/s: I just wanted to go M.I.A. Being myself, away from this fucking crazy problematic family amd associated people.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017


One moment you said this,
Another you said shit.

I restrained myself from posting those comments you made towards me and that other person you are allergic to so much.

Because I'm not like you.
I'm not that low to post things like that.

p/s: Who fell into the deepest hole of despair? You.


I already blocked you too from every social media platform I could.
Oh, and your number as well.

Dear "friend",
You know who you are.
Please take care of my ex.
Be his friend or he'll lose his mind.
Just be his, not ours, not mine anymore.
Because I know how awkward it is to be the middle person.
I used to be one for you back in highschool.
So hate me like he do.
Diss me like how he does it.
Because he needs you more than I do.

In fact, I just needed myself from now on.

Don't bother to back me up.
Although you might have not done it recently, I don't mind.
I understand.

Have a good life.

p/s: Ciao dude.